Just wanted to gt on here and let you know I've not given up or forgotten about this. My computer contracted a virus so i've not been able to get on. I'm currently at Jose's house using his computer. hopefully mine will be fixed soon...mainly b/c my resume is on my computer and I really need it to send for a job possiblity! Any way this week has been un eventful. I didn't loose or gain anything. This doesn't upset me mainly b/c with school it's so hard to loose weight. My professors said I should focus on maintaining and if I happen to loose too then it's all good. So I think i'm happy if i maintain and would be even happier if I lost. well, once I get my computer back and running I'll start posting again...till then

The weekend day 5 and 6

So this weekend I spent relaxing with Jose. It was a very nice weekend but most of what I ate was approximated but I think I did all right. We didn't do much this weekend but relax at home. I had clinical on Friday then left and went straight to his house. we came back to my house on sat after meeting my family for pizza at wood field and some time at game works.

day 5 clinical and Jose's House

well I got up this morning and only had coffee and didn't even finish all of it because we were out of creamer so I had to use milk and splenda....yuck! Then I had 1/2 a bowl of chili at the hospital and then pasta and a blue berry muffin for dessert. not a bad day

breakfast
coffee 60 cal

lunch
chili 400 (prob not that much but I'd rather aim high)

dinner
Friday's pasta from Jewel. the entire bag was about 810 and Jose ate about 1/2 of it so I'll estimate it at about 500

dessert
blueberry muffin 250

Jose's house only has regular pop so I did have a glass of regular pop at 150

I was very bad with my water today...only got 2 glasses in....I find it so hard to get this in during clincial and I find if I don't start early it upset the entire day

I only ate about 1350 but I'm sure i prob had another glass of pop or something else so I want to say i actually at around 1600-1700. Not bad for an unplanned day.

day six

breakfast
coffee 100
peaches 80

Lunch/dinner
2 pieces of uno's deep dish pizza. I know I could of ordered something lighter but that pizza is amazing and I was not eating like a salad while everyone else ate my favorite pizza. I think each slice was about 500 so a total of 1000

snack
some Mexican dish at Jose's house I'm approximating about 250
a granola bar 150
a little bit of appetizers 200

total for today approx 1780 again not a bad day for yummy pizza...but no water...I know i'm bad...

total for the day

Day 3 and 4

Ok so I can't give you day 3 calories as I can't seem to find my book that I keep my count in. However, I do know it was a good day and ate right around 1800 cal. So onto today. Today I had my final in cardiology. It went very very well and I ended up getting an A in the class so I was psyched. Other then that I spent the day lounging around and getting psyched for the weekend. Another wonderful weekend with Jose, what more can I ask for? Well no clinical tomorrow would be nice but who's asking lol. other then that pretty much a boring day.

break fast
coffee 60
cottage cheese 100

lunch
healthy choice 250

snack
cheese and crackers 200
fruit 140

dinner
1 small slice of pizza 200
salad with grilled chicken 600

desert
ice cream 250

total for the day 1800 sweet! but only got in 3 glasses of water...the night is still young.

day 2

Ok so today was another hard day and I think I went over my calories by a little and I did a lot of estimating which always makes me nervous. could be high coudl be low...both are bad. Today we had another test at school. I did very well on the exam but afterward costco was there with food...so I gave in and split an apple pastry with a friend. We also had heavier dishes today which is not normal so I'm not really sure I could of correct much. I didn't work out today becuase my muscles are sore from yesterday. I hope to get to the gym tomorrow but I'm studyign for a final in cardiology so we'll see if that happens

Breakfast
coffee 100
2 eggs 140

snack
apple pastry I estimated 200 b/c paneras whole pastry is 300 and I split it with a friend

lunch
healthy choice 300
fruit 200

afternoon snack
granola bar 280

dinner
1 1/4 cup mac and cheese from cooking light 500 cal
salad with cottage cheese 250
milk 100

total 1870

all in all not a bad day only 70 calories over and I did get in 6 glasses of water today!

my thoughts and starting over

So I stopped posting because I became very discouraged. It's so hard to loose weight in my house. My mom continuously buys fattening snacks because she wants my sisters to gain weight. the problem is I like those snacks too. She buys cookies, granola bars, chips, candy ect and puts them out on the counter where they are so easy to get to. I started this diet thing over again today and ran into the same problem. the cookies were on the counter and I was stressed and bored so I ate some. then was like omg...how many calories was that. I'd lost 3 lbs and currently have gained all 3 lbs back because of mistakes like that. I'm frustrated and very close to giving up. but, I know that's not the answer. So here I am today continuing this even though it depresses me because I know i ate an ungodly amount of calories today in freakin cookies! I guess all I can do is be truthful about what I ate today and try to correct it tomorrow. and I'm sure if I'd posted in the last 2 weeks I probably would of only gained back like 1.5 lbs and not the total 3. So time to try this again.

breakfast
coffee 60 cal

lunch
sandwich
bread 150
turkey and cheese 200
mayo 50
3 cookies 320

total for the day

dinner
home made chicken noodle soup 270
blt 350
3 cookies 320
milk 100

total for the day
snack at night fruit 160

total for the day 1920

so today wasn't too bad but those 6 cookies cost me 640 cal of mindless eating. however, I did work out today with my trainer for an hour and got in my full 8 glasses of water. If I hadn't given into the cookies I probably would of done fantastic today. I'll be back here tomorrow same time with hopefully a better story.

Day 1 of march

So today was very good. I slept in which hardly ever happens so only had coffee for breakfast...I know i'm bad but I was gonna eat lunch like an hour later and I'm more into lunch food then breakfast. I also controlled myself at borders today...book and coffee speaking. I ordered my small nonfat chi tea latte and didn't get any books as I have 3 exams coming up in the next 2 weeks. For dinner my mom made these amazing sandwiches. I'm not sure of the calorie count but I'm assuming that for each little sandwich it was probably 300 cal. I did have 3...I know I'm aweful but they were yummy and two I had for dinner and ate another later for a snack...

Breakfast
coffee 60cal

Lunch
3/4 cup of left over pasta from last night approx 200

snack
chi tea 130
granola bar 190

total for the day 580

dinner
sandwich 600
salad and fruit 150
low sugar lemonade 100

total for the day 1430

snack
another small sandwich 300

total for the day 1730

I do have 70-100 cal I can have if I need something but it is 9:00 and I try not to eat after this.
all in all a good day I think
PS check out the sandwich recipe on my low fat recipe page

weigh in number 3

Hey sorry my postings have been scarce this week...school got kinda crazy so this took a back seat. I can't believe I'm almost done with cardiology....just two more weeks and 3 more exams....sigh. Any way, I do keep my totals in general and had a decent week. I only worked out once...I know bad right but managed to stick around my goal almost every day. I did have pizza over the weekend which made my weight sky rocked on sat but then came back down today...got to love sodium... Any way today has been good so far. I worked out with my personal trainer today and got my butt handed to me again. I'm hoping I don't hurt as much this week so I can get back to the gym on wed. I weighed in tonight and found out I lost another lb. This was good news considering the mishap with the pizza. So I've lost a total of 3 lbs in 3 weeks. In my mind that's perfect. Nice and slow just like it should be. I will post my menu for today later tonight

With love,
Lauren